Friday, July 08, 2005
holidays ending soon. in about two weeks time, i will have to drag myself back to school and face everything again. busy school life means less time with my darlings. i still wan to party damn hard. i still want to play marjong like there's no tmr. i am dying hard for the next singing session. well, i admit that it can get quite meaninglless when you wake up in the afternoon everyday and play till dawn breaks. but at least, i am happy now. at least at peace. i am in my comfort zone. there's no need to hide. when i get back there, i don't even know how things are going to be like. follow your own instincts and learn your lessons. luckily, rongzhen and jiamin's still there. how i wish liyana went ntu too. then we can go trainings together. at least there will be something to look forward too everyday when trainings start. suddenly, i regret going to nie. maybe i should have went to nafa to pursue my designer's dream. then i wouldn't have to care. what others think if i dye my hair or dress the way i like. yet a part of me can't wait to start work since i can be really happy when i am with the kids. but going out to work will only make me realsie how sad and superficial the world is. reinforcing the idea in me. but im lucky. at least i know that there are people whom i can rely on. people who promise and don't break them. peng's back. i miss you wendy. my teammates. mickey and fernie, quick come abck from figi. i miss you too but things just aren't the same anymore. and please don't tell me that i am being pessimistic. cuase i don;t think you know me anymore. i have changed. you have changed or maybe i didn't know you at all. and maybe you didn't know me at all too. gear up babe
i made it known at 1:45 PM
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