Thursday, July 14, 2005
been feeling empty and hollow for a period of time. like everything's meaningless and i am just going through the motion. i have not been doing much. off season now so slacking quite a bit. a long time since i pick up a book and read. and i think that's one of the reason why i am feeling stupid and unspohisticated. haven't been keeping myself updated with what's happening. flipping through magazines. watch tv. sleep through some movies. shopping. and of cause partying. so ironic. the louder the volume the activity produced, the more it drains away your soul and leave you feeling nothing. like a empty shell. for isntance, clubbing. loud music. everyone looks happy and having fun. but how many are really happy? i am still addicted to clubbing. whatever. yet things that produce no sound at all can infuse you with silence vibrance. like reading and making earrings. school officially starting in 10 days. excited or dread? i don't know. i seem to be losing my sanity to think. i need to use the remaining time that i have to hibernate. to lock myself up. and think and hoepfully, make it through.
i made it known at 3:32 PM
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