Wednesday, June 01, 2005
can i run away from it forever? no i can't. but tell me what else can i do? you guys can say or think whatever you all want. cause seriously i can't control. maybe me running away is not the best solution but if it puts everybody in a more 'comfortable' position. then so be it. just get over this stage then everything will be fine. get the knee fixed and start training hard again. you wont have any more time to think about all the crap. if anyone had bother, maybe things will be different. but something i learn... no expectation then no disappointment. and the last thing i want is me thinking that everything you did was for a purpose. but human beings are selfish by nature. deep inside us, we only care for ourselves and no one else. and pulling myself away is for the benefit of all and protecting myself? i don't know. i'll never know whether what im doing is right or wrong till school starts. whatever it is, wish everyone's doing well and enjoying the holz. after all, who else can i blame but myself? and i think that's the only reason that i can find. the reason why im going to be all alone. from now onwards. but do i really only deserve this bit? i don't know. but hope that you're happier. than before...
i made it known at 12:09 AM
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