Sunday, May 15, 2005
had a very good game today. felt really nervous cause it was such a close game. but the funny thing is everybody thought that i looked calm. haha which means that im staying in control. something that grace said kind of made me think abit. many of us, when we started playing. we play with a smile. in our hearts and on our faces. but as we grow older, improve and make it to the natonal team. the smile disappear. for me now, i know that i no longer play with the smile that i used to have. i wanted to get better. to be in the first line up all taht. then gradually, i lost focus. the focus to enjoy the game more than anything else. and i think that's the reason why i dreaded netball and trainings for a period of time. despite the fact that i deproved after the long break, i will never regret. the break made me stronger and i am now more definite about what i really want. im having fun again. and i think that is ultimately what really matters. happiness that we gained from playing. and i think that's the only thing that will keep you going despite all the challenges that you will face. in life too. we must embrace sad times and difficulties. if i have never been sad, i will never know what's happiness. if i have never fail, i will never know waht it takes to be a elite player. if i have never miss the critical shots in a game, i will never know how much harder i have to train to make it there. if we have always been together, i will never learn to appreciate the friendship that we shared now. whatever it is, i thank God for blessing me with netball, my teammates, my friends, and you.
i made it known at 9:53 PM
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