Tuesday, May 03, 2005
everyone's telling me that you are a bastard. and that i should hate you. blame you for all the pain that i am feeling now. sadness that i have to endure in silence to make sure that you wont feel bad for making me feel this way. putting up a strong front just because i still like you. do you know how much better my life will be if i can hate you and bloody hell blame you for screwing up my life somemore for leading me on. but i cant. i cant bring myself to even hate you. cause i still like you. so many questions in my head. but i doubt i can ever find answers to them. i hurt so badly that i cant even cry. why did i let things become like that? can't you see that im upset not because you don't feel the same way? im fucking depressed coz we r not even friends now. and why the hell are you treating me this way? or why don't you screw things up somemore so i can at least have the opportunity to hate you. to hate you for everything. why did i throw away the photos that we took? why did i throw away the tickets of our first movie together? why did i throw away the reciept that we share ice cream at hiagen diaz? and why did i fucking fall in love with you?
i know you are scare
i can see the fear in your eyes
in everything that you do
you are afraid that
you are the someone
i sing about in my songs...
don't worry my dear
there won't be anymore songs
no more singing about us
cause...
there isn't an US anymore.
move on babe...
i made it known at 12:24 AM
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