Friday, April 22, 2005
life's never perfect. and you cant get the best of everything. no matter how much you love to. no matter how you wish that you can have the best of both world. sometimes, you just got to choose even when the choice is painful to make. it feels good to be training again. to be with my teammates again. to just play and have fun. or maybe i am saying this because all i am doing is to keep myself busy and not think about it. not to think about him. cause i know that i will get upset and i am not going to let it happen. training everyday. wont have time to meet the class at all. good or bad? i don't know. i miss them but this holidays's just gonna pull me away from them. drift apart? most probably. but what if i meet them. with him around. then i start behaving wierdly. and spoil everybody's day. then what's the point then? i need to get use to being alone again. i am afraid of weekends now. afraid of being alone on friday nights. doing nothing. the last thing that i want to do will be to sleep early. don't feel like clubbing though. clubbing just add on to the emptiness in me. was doing crunches wif serene yesterday. then she said something which really made sense to em now. dreams. dreams are so important. dreams keep us going. even when things are not going the way we want it to. when we are feeling down.
What do you see
When you look inside your heart
A little thought
Can walk a thousand miles
And change your life
When dreams lead the way
The impossible is suddenly in sight
Every step you take
Just brings it all together
You gotta keep the faith
When all seems lost forever
once a fighter, always a fighter. i need to find the rachel back. and set the fire burning again. everything will be fine. keep believing even when you feel like giving up. keep believing in yourself. one day, you will make it through.
i made it known at 3:19 PM
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