Sunday, April 24, 2005
feeling tired yet contented. had a good game then went to eat with monkey, liling, weiqi n grace. time spent with them just makes me happie.the hot chocolate with extra whipped cream @ starsbucks definately make me happier too. yet why do i feel that my heart is aching deep inside? every now and then, i can feel the stab of pain. every laughter just reemphasize its presence. but who can i blame? i am the reason why things turned out this way. that we cant even be friends like we were before. i know i will get over all this. but not anytime near. i can't seem to erase your face from my memory.
what the fuck are you thinking rachel yim? he doesn't like you so why the hell are you holding on to it? when in reality, he might not even give a shit. call me mean. but sometimes i wished that you arel not be having a good time too. that somehow, you will miss those times like i do.
will you? or maybe the two of your really like each other but never say it out. maybe this long break will bring you guys together. whatever it is, i will still pray for you and hope that everything's going on well for you. take care of yourself old man.
i made it known at 11:29 PM
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