Sunday, March 06, 2005
its wierd. as in life is wierd. out of a sudden, i am not interested as much in clubbing. just no mood. so many things have changed. i have changed. my friends have changed. our goals ahve change. even mambo nites are different now. for the better or the worse, i am in no position to judge. i am in no position to comment on what people do in the club anymore. cause, like them, i smoke n drink whenever i hit the clubs. against the so called rules that i set for myself, i dance wif guys that i don't even know. going to the club, makes me hate myself sometimes. hate the way things are turning out. i can no longer 'look down' on girls who get themselves dead drunk and have to be get drag out of the club. cause it happened to me, not just once. my kakis can sense something is wrong. as in i am not as addicted to it anymore. but nothing's wrong. sometimes there is just no reason to everything. just like there is no soultion to all problems. maybe this is all part of growing up. i seriously think that i am very wierd. damn wierd. wierd way of looking at things. wierd way of handling situations etc. now i saae i dun like clubbing. then wed i will feel like going. maybe. who knows? feel and go with the flow. life's short. why restrict yourself? conclusion: do what you wanna do. life's short. why limit yourself within the boundaries? do what you believe in.
i made it known at 5:56 PM
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