Wednesday, February 09, 2005
just read inky's blog and suddenly, i miss the rachel i used to be. training so hard for netball. putting all my heart and soul into everything i do. i wanted so much to prove to myself and everybody that i want to eb the best shooter in singapore one day. that i can balance netball with my studies. i didn't give a shit about what other people got to say about me cause i had faith and believe in myself totally. with no hesitation. i didn't care about my weight. i wanted to be strong and tough so i can play well on court. netball and my teammates were my everything. i don't give a damn about guys. whenever i cry, its just got to be netball or my family. not about weight. and definately not because of a certain him. it was only a few years ago, yet so many things have changed. i am no longer the girl i used to be. i am no longer carefree. no longer sing out loud wherever i go. no longer laugh as hard as i used to. no longer play netball. no longer know how to love and be loved... no longer....
i made it known at 4:19 PM
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