Tuesday, January 11, 2005
tell me not to be so pessimistic abt things. tell me not to give up on my hidden dreams no matter what they say, even if people close to you just can't understand.
please.. please stop asking me the reason why i don't want to play netball for now and the near future. i don't know. i admit that i am sad that we are no longer as close and i feel guilty about it. but i guess this is life and i can't have the best of everything. i think i should stop reading blogs of them even though i really want to know what is going on in their lives, things that happen during trainings all dat. i watched the video that yingqi firmed down when we were practising the dance steps during asian youth. fond memories but from the finall day of the tournament, i knew that i will move on to a new part of my life and search for another destination. whatever it is, sorry that i am always so stubborn. but i think i need to move on.
now i am thinking why the hell am i thinking about all this. totally emotionally fucked up.
i made it known at 9:34 PM
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