Thursday, January 13, 2005
i knew this day will come, sooner or later but i really didn't expect it to happen now. i am losing it again. everything seems to be going down the slope all over again. and the worse thing is i am having my practicum now. its so mentally tiring in school. endless lesson plans to write and the marking will just keep on piling on. its getting into me again. i can't carry out the class the way i wanted or the way i expect it to turn out. and i feel really discouraged sometimes when i start to reflect after a lesson. asking myself questions and pondering if i taught the topic well anot. i went mambo yesterday. needed a desperate opportunity to release some stress in the middle of the week before i stop breathing. well, i felt bad coz i was really tired and needed to go back home early. in the end, peng n claudia have to leave early together with me. it has been a long time since i went out with wendy. i miss the times that we go watch movies, eat ice cream in the theatre n our pigging sessions.... now, seems like we can only meet at clubs. and that is not quality times to spend wif my dear friend. feel like i am drifting from eveybody. that same old feeling. creeping back to me all over again. i miss my teammates. wondering how are everybody. i am so tired. so tired that i can't even think properly. forgive me if i behave moronically. i think im losing it again.
i made it known at 1:34 PM
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