Sunday, January 23, 2005
do u enjoy being along at night? well, sometimes i do. slack at home, play some jazz and snuggle in my bed with a good book... hmmm that is really call quality self time. in the silence of the night, my creative juices will start to flow and i will start to have all sorts of ideas.
what can i do to revamp this shirt of mine? eh think i can make a pair of earrings that look like this... how bout getting a edgy look wif this skirt and belt? think that's why i really dream to become a designer one day.. hah how bout going nanyang academy of fine arts after i complete my bond to take the diploma in fashion design. they offer part time course for that too... i have been thinking about this for very long. part of me really dream that i can have my own boutique one day. sell clothes that i lurve...
vintage, boho, chic stuffies... i have been drawing up alot of stuff actually. earrings, bags, tops,skirts etc.. its like all hidden in my little black notebook. have been doodle-ing even since i stop playing netball. well, am i thinking too much? is this just a dream that will never come true? see how things go ba... thinking of starting small by putting some of my stuffies to sell at this shop @ far east called the inbox to sell. small start up costs. just try lo.. no harm rite? hehe think if i tell this to some of my friends, u guys will probably think that i am mad but i really want to try. should i say that it is
listening to my inner voice? i don't know. don't want to think too far.. just take every day at my own stride cause i mean, i don't know when will i leave this world. i went for supper with my mum and brother just now. bro was telling me that one of his school mates just passed away. apparently, he had blood clot in his brain then after a few days after nose bleed, he was announced brain dead and hanging on with the help of the breathing machine. 26 years old dude, married and signed on with the air force. bright and exciting future ahead of him. but god took him away. my mum was saying that how come he is so careless and didn't take the sympthoms seriously. well, sometimes i feel that things are just fated to be the way it is.
God has plans for all of us. if your time is up, you can't do anything to stop it. recently, i read a friend's self intro about himself on friendster too.
loves to try out different kinds of food and something new... besides drugs etc of course.. you live just this once.. i don't believe in next life.. there is no such thing as next life.. just do what you feel like doing.. wanna buy something just get it, there will be ways of making the money back, wanna eat something just eat it, even though it will make you fat and stuffs but still you enjoyed it right ? feel like clubbing tonight just do it.. cause you never know when your time is up... if only you live forever which will not happen =P if someone you admire for very long but still havn't make a move.. damn it do it soon cause he/she won't be there forever to wait for u.. last but not least your love ones won't be there forever so love them as much as possible when they are still around.. so cherish every second of life.
written in simple english but reveal great truth. i am not trying to explain for myself for all that i have done. be it studies, clubbing, netball or even putting in so much money to what i like. but what if today is really the last day that i have in this world. for all those who know me well, u guys will know that if i really like something, i will just buy it. if it makes me happier. if i want to learn something,
a new language, dj-ing which i think i will learn after i come back from us, guitar, keyboard, hip hop dance, salsa etc..i will just go ahead and learn it. firstly, like what i say i don't know when my time will be up and secondly, i want to try as many things i can when i still can. you can always earn the money back. but you can never get your time back. you jsut can't turn back time. maybe in the future i will regret for making certain choices but at least for now, i am quite sure that i am happie wif wat i am doing. putting a full stop to my netball career temporaily did not make me regret for anything except for the friendships that i left behind. i went sikkim. i met alot of new people. i managed to revive the friendships that were special to me. i saw things that i never thought i will see. maybe continue playing will allow me to see beautiful things, but i choose not to think too much into it. jiamin told me before, once i set my heart on doing some things then just go ahead with it. no matter what happen, just don't look back and regret. live life to the fullest. unleash the potential in you. no matter what other people say, you know yourself best. believe and have faith. you will make it one day. well, typing all this down is what i feel now. at this moment. like what wendy said
spur of the moment. and isn't this the purpose of a blog? =)
i made it known at 11:27 PM
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