Wednesday, October 13, 2004
i can still remember very vividly what's my dream for my netball career when i was only thirteen years old. i wanted to represent singapore in the netball championship one day. n be the best shooter in my country. i had so much faith n courage that i really believed my dream will come true then. now, i really dont know. it has been like almost one month since i played and trained. seriously, i feel out of touch. the busy and hectic schedule in school make time pass so fast that today is already 13 october 2004. close to 3 months since i came back from asian youth. its so saddening when you come to realise that you lost that passion that you once had. i lost the fighting spirit that i had for my love. actually, i kind of hate the rachel now. i mean, to a certain extent, when i think about things in the netball context. i longed to go back and play again. have a brand new start. search for the lost soul. search for the rachel that i once know. the girl who had an endless amount of energy and love for her game. i want ... but im not sure if i can. im gonna stop asking people to give me the answer. i think its time that i start to think for myself.
i made it known at 1:26 AM
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